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Something about myself, about "private me"...in my bad English:)
My nickname is Rebel Mouse, born in Smederevska Palanka in Serbia, 1975 as Predić Saša. I grew up beside parents who were not authoritarian so I became rebel in public nursery and in primary school. I went in public nursery when I wanted so mostly of time I was with children "on the street". Nursery-governes made jokes on my bill and one time she kicked me in the face strong. Woman who teached us in primary school, active communist, beat me also very often with wood-stick on my back side of legs. But nothing succeeded them to order me. In secondary school I had always, in first 2 months already, negative note about discipline (about disqualification from the school). That's so when someone was punk in little city of communist Yugoslavia... In military they gave me higher position because I learned much better than other about weapon and explosive, but I refused to give orders to soldiers. I liked to go to the course for higher position because I liked more to learn than to work in backyard and to clean leafs from wood. But I didn't like to give orders to the people. Soldiers were also pushed to go in military so they didn't like orders also. In that way giving of orders was hard even for those who give it. Therefore officers didn't like me. In any case, in that time I was not anarchist but I saw in what kind of system I am living (children of riches cook coffee for officers whole day while children of workers had to work hard jobs in military object). In that way I understood that system, the state, exist first of all to secure enjoying for riches and to secure for them (and their children) their privileged positions (jobs). After one year military service I worked in company for repair so I breath half year ashes behind (coal) power plant. There I saw hidden dissatisfaction of workers but their obedient character in front of director also. I saw imperfectness of working class and their hegemony also (if you don't drink with us you don't belong to us, so I am not surprised that alcoholism is usual fenomena in our society and beside poverty that's the biggest reason for family violence). I left that job when first factory strike, in which I participated, was broken. During strike I saw that leaders of syndicate are on the side of director. although in the beginning they speak against director in order to get people to believe in them. After it I studied faculty of law in Belgrade and in that time I understood how much I didn't know about politics. I learned there very much, not only for exams than for life. Writings in books I compared always with present reality and I saw that there is nothing new in mainstream politics and that everything is already seen/happened and tried in history. In that time I visited often human rights organizations, I thought that neoliberalism is the best, but I changed that opinion when I experienced practice of capitalism. 1999 I was first time in capitalist country, in Switzerland, where I saw that, theoretically the best state's system, is in reality nothing more than system of bank's mafia and racism. Institutions, and people, hate foreigners, so, ruling class created public opinion in harmony with own needs (they don't like foreigners who come from poor country, plus Europe had to make propaganda against Serbian in order to justify their bombarding of people in my country). Because of my studying of law, I recognized always very easy technics of ruling. That's how I changed my opinion about capitalism and started to watch it like evil. NGO propagate what capitalism should be, ideals of capitalism, but they don't speak about reality of capitalism. After Swiss, I was friend one year with baptists in Serbia, they are little community which really live in harmony with bible, priest is just first between equal so they don't have real hierarchy. But during the time I saw some things which I didn't like (they are good for authorities, they have connections between politicians, and in the end, bible is not so much in harmony with my need (I am not pacifist)). After it I succeeded finally to find books about anarchism, I was interested for it because I listen punk music from age of 13. So I got detailed information about anarchism and after it I found anarchists and I started to participate in anarchist actions. I participated in creating of anarcho-syndicalist newspaper "Direktna akcija" also. During 2003 I participated in creating of squat, house which serve as anarchist center and beside it that was my real need (I became homeless in summer 2003). House was alive half year. After it, other started to occupy other houses while I had to leave Serbia because of problem with the law. I went to Germany 3 months and after it they arrested me in Switzerland. They kept me 5 months in deportation prison and after deportation i finished automatically in Serbian custody 2 months. In October 2005 I was judged one year of prison but again I ran away to EU where I am and today. My punishment became old in October 2007 but I stayed in EU because I don't have what to do in East (there are still no actions like I need). So practically from summer 2004 I am "between land and sky" about political activism because of problem with the law ("economic activism") and because of European fascist immigration politics. I can visit demonstrations but I must be carefully and I don't have what to do with West European anarchists because they are not in harmony with my needs. They didn't change themselves after they became supporters of anarchist idea. Until I find people like I need, I am not active. I demonstrated enough in my life, now I need "bigger" actions. Beside it, there is complex problem of awaking of mass of people and we need time for it but in the meantime EU immigration politics push me in problems. In the end, I can't be active like West European because we don't have the same status in present system. Foreigners are in much worst situation than domestic people. I hope I will activate myself one day again, in harmony with my needs... That's all from me about (private) me, for now... Sept.2008.
More about "political me" at: RebelMouse